Trust in me, trust in me.

Don't pull away

Trust in me, trust in me.

I'm just trying to keep this together,

Because I could do worse and you could do better

xx

I will wear my heart upon my sleeve For daws to peck at. I am not what I am..........

Triptych of my little bro =] x

Free hug and cookie for anyone who can guess where the titles from =] !!

Shit weekend , Friday i went yc , was really boring and then didn't even get to see Mat that much . Saturday I stayed in to study and then went to see Maynooths musical ( which was wayyyyyyyyy awesomer then Coláistes ) . Then today my mam made me stay in an study and I didn't even get to see Mat , miss him so so much.

Cant wait until midterm =] !! Seeing friends and sessions and Paris and fun times and filming and pictures and movie nights and pizza and ice-cream and no school and late nights and sleepovers and the freedom to just not do ANYTHING! I've just been so tired and run-down lately , I'm dreading what it'll be like in 6th year !!! But oh well , it's gotta be done i s'pose =[ .

Have you ever been so so scared of something happening , that simply by being scared it starts to happen ????

Youth Café talent show auditions this saturday !!! Get your form by e-mailing celbridgeyouthcafe@gmail.com . Trust me , it's worth it !!! =]

I've been watching loadsa films lately , like good arts films like Trainspotting , Elephant and Billy Elliot ....... i absolutely love this quote from Trainspotting :

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?

I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?

-Rents

But yeah , tests an study and whatnot are really getting me down ! I feel like just going into a corner and sleeping for a few years ..... I keep getting told that it'll be all worth it in the end , but is it really . I mean we all end up with the life that Rents describes in Train spotting , don't we ??? Comment your opinion and stuff =]

This song reminds me of Mat , love you =] xx

Shout outs to Lucy and Ash , bitching buddies =P . And also to Zeta for getting me an AWESOME PLACEBO CD for Kris kindle =] .

So , thats it for nows , ttylz bitchez XP

SparklesandAshes xx