Saturday, November 28, 2009

“What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us. What we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal.” -Albert Pine................


To an outsider last night would have seemed pretty boring ........ The opposite is true. Four people found sadness in life ( one of which i'm very very scared about =[ ) , two found happiness with each other , that will hopefully last because , though i barely know one , the other i know rather well , and i know she truly deserves this happiness =] . And i , as usual , was the one to watch and listen , comfort and encourage , but never to be involved .... This seems to happen alot , i think that if i was part of a book i would be the "third person" . That omnipresence that is both there and not at the same time . The thing is , i'm always the one who listens and trys to help , i cant bring myself to trust someone enough when i need to talk ... Or when i do talk to someone i always feel like i'm pushing my problems onto them , like i'm awkward and stupid and selfish . This isint in anyway lessening( is that even a word ?) the support and love that many of my friends have shown me when i've been going through bad times , i'm so so grateful for that . Also , i'd never begrudge a shoulder to cry on or just someone to talk to to anyone who needs it , ever . But i just feel that whenever i have to talk to someone , i have no idea who to turn to , who to trust .... But what am i saying , most of this post is nonsensical gibberish XD !!




So to happier matters !! SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOES !!!! ZOMG(literally) i found the most amazingest shoes everrrrrr in schuh , and i is getting them for christmas =P .

Aren't they just WOW !!!! Zombies are smagical =] !! My grannys gonna faint when she sees them on x-mas day , hehe >.<

FRONT


BACK



The only problem with this is that this is a vintage Chanel dress that would probably cost half the price of the house i live in to have ..... So i've been internet hunting for another LBD ( little black dress) to go with them ...... With limited sorta success ....

1)
This ones from Topshop . i love the general style and cut of it and the bow in the fromts just so darn cute but theres no straps , which i dont like and i'm not sure from the picture how long the skirt is .....


2)

This ones from Monsoon . I'm not sure about the material , and the whole diagonal things a bit off putting on the body but i think that this would probably suit me more then the topshop one . Plus i <3 style="font-weight: bold;">


So anyways comments and suggestions on these welc
ome cause i reeeeeeeally need help =P !!




Oh yeah the three signs of Christmas happened this week ! These are three annual events that just get you so excited and in the mood for Christmas ( well they do for me ....)


1

The Late Late Toy Show !!
was smagical this year !!!! =P everyone looks forward to it from the age they can sit up to watch telly ( except my mother =[ "Bah Humbug" ) it reminds us of when we were still small and enthralled that Santa might just bring some of the stuff you see on the Late Late Toy Show if you just wished hard enough .





2


The Lights Go Up In The Village
They're not on yet but the anticipations a killer !!



3

The Coca Cola Christmas Ad
I saw it for the first time this year this week , it's the most memorable thing ever and you just know Christmas is coming when you see the red Santa and hear that "Holidays are coming " jingle =]
So yeah , thats about it ..... wow thats a long post ! (for me lol) . So i'll best be doing my homework now , procrastination ftw XD !! Slán =]


SparklesandAshes
xx


Sunday, November 22, 2009

......Pon and zi muchness XP


I miss you Matt ='[ .......... Love you lots and lots =] !!!!
You've made me so happy over the past few weeks , and you means so much to me !

So i stayed over in Elises last night with a load of peoples . Was great fun .... even after walking for about an hour and a half in the pitch dark and rain to ardclough XP !!! Dannys leaving =[ , me sad !!! He's awesome !!!! Stoopid asian college thingy !!!!Grrrrrrr

Went to see a christmas carol yesterday too ..... omg soooooooooo freaky , and scary !!! Me and Lucy cried =[ !! Twas an awesome day .. Oh , i'm not smoking no more aswell ....... just thought i'd throw that in there =]

Strike on tuesday !!! Woot woot ! Allowed go clane XP yayness ......

Matt showed me this band Glamour Of The Kill ... they is awesome !!!





Well thats about it , i g2g do an essay for irish and one for English that was due for last week =S

Bye Byes


SparklesandAshes

Sunday, November 15, 2009

......but you can sky rocket away from me , and never come back if you find another galaxy ......

so , something blogworthy actually happens in my life and i find myself reluctant to even think of it ..... never mind type it ...


This certain girl , who i know reads this , for reasons unknown just decided that i wasnt good enough to know her .
She cant know how much this hurts .... she was in Dublin , she told me , she told me that we'd hang out .... i waited all day for her to tell me what the story was , were when etc ....and she never did . I'm so hurt and lost and confused ... i dont know weather she forgot or "forgot" or if it was something someone told her ( a certain someone who let me down before and ever since then sickens me to see her every day) or if she finally realised what a complete waste of time knowing me is .

Whatever her reasons , why can't she just tell me ???
How can she just leave me without a clue whats going on ...???

i've been comfort eating and smoking like a chimney and washing my hair over and over to do something anything to avoid thinking , maybe it'd just me over reacting but .....oh i dunno ..... I need another cigarette ...


Tell me where do they go
These smoke rings I blow each night
What do they do these circles of blue and white
Puff puff puff puff your cares away
Puff puff puff night and day
Blow blow them through the air silky little rings
Those little smoke rings I love take me above .....
-
K.D. Lang , Smoke rings


Fuck it anyways , it doesnt matter , life goes on ... But yeah , this weekend sucked !!


Getting obsessed with K.D Lang atm ..... she has the most amazing voice ever !


oh and this song is amazing !




really describes how i feel now ..... =]

SparklesandAshes xx

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

.........FUNGI SHOVEL !!!!!

Who would name a dolphin after a mushroom anyways....?

So's , havent blogged in a while , midterm and suchness ....
Midterm was LIKEZOMFGSUPERAWESOMENESSSPARKLEWOWSPLUSABIGRAWRCAUSEIMJUSTTHATKOOLWITHACAPITALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



or just plain very very good =] .

So went to Ffaf with Efa on a whim , was awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwesome !!!!! We gots right near the front and all and danced like lunatics =P







Then gots grounded by my mammy , but she brought me shopping and cinema to see UP and bought me twilight on Dvd so it wasnt all bad =S













Btw UP is amazzzzzzzzzzeing !! So sad =[ ..... But total animation awesomeness!!!














W
ent ste's party on Halloween , wasnt there for very long but twas amazing !!!! The stories going around speak for themselves !!




well , g2g ballet now , toodles!!



SparklesandAshes
xx