“What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us. What we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal.” -Albert Pine................

To an outsider last night would have seemed pretty boring ........ The opposite is true. Four people found sadness in life ( one of which i'm very very scared about =[ ) , two found happiness with each other , that will hopefully last because , though i barely know one , the other i know rather well , and i know she truly deserves this happiness =] . And i , as usual , was the one to watch and listen , comfort and encourage , but never to be involved .... This seems to happen alot , i think that if i was part of a book i would be the "third person" . That omnipresence that is both there and not at the same time . The thing is , i'm always the one who listens and trys to help , i cant bring myself to trust someone enough when i need to talk ... Or when i do talk to someone i always feel like i'm pushing my problems onto them , like i'm awkward and stupid and selfish . This isint in anyway lessening( is that even a word ?) the support and love that many of my friends have shown me when i've been going through bad times , i'm so so grateful for that . Also , i'd never begrudge a shoulder to cry on or just someone to talk to to anyone who needs it , ever . But i just feel that whenever i have to talk to someone , i have no idea who to turn to , who to trust .... But what am i saying , most of this post is nonsensical gibberish XD !!




So to happier matters !! SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOES !!!! ZOMG(literally) i found the most amazingest shoes everrrrrr in schuh , and i is getting them for christmas =P .

Aren't they just WOW !!!! Zombies are smagical =] !! My grannys gonna faint when she sees them on x-mas day , hehe >.<

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The only problem with this is that this is a vintage Chanel dress that would probably cost half the price of the house i live in to have ..... So i've been internet hunting for another LBD ( little black dress) to go with them ...... With limited sorta success ....

1)

This ones from Topshop . i love the general style and cut of it and the bow in the fromts just so darn cute but theres no straps , which i dont like and i'm not sure from the picture how long the skirt is .....


2)

This ones from Monsoon . I'm not sure about the material , and the whole diagonal things a bit off putting on the body but i think that this would probably suit me more then the topshop one . Plus i <3 style="font-weight: bold;">


So anyways comments and suggestions on these welcome cause i reeeeeeeally need help =P !!




Oh yeah the three signs of Christmas happened this week ! These are three annual events that just get you so excited and in the mood for Christmas ( well they do for me ....)

1

The Late Late Toy Show !!
was smagical this year !!!! =P everyone looks forward to it from the age they can sit up to watch telly ( except my mother =[ "Bah Humbug" ) it reminds us of when we were still small and enthralled that Santa might just bring some of the stuff you see on the Late Late Toy Show if you just wished hard enough .

2


The Lights Go Up In The Village
They're not on yet but the anticipations a killer !!

3

The Coca Cola Christmas Ad
I saw it for the first time this year this week , it's the most memorable thing ever and you just know Christmas is coming when you see the red Santa and hear that "Holidays are coming " jingle =]

So yeah , thats about it ..... wow thats a long post ! (for me lol) . So i'll best be doing my homework now , procrastination ftw XD !! Slán =]


SparklesandAshes
xx

......Pon and zi muchness XP

I miss you Matt ='[ .......... Love you lots and lots =] !!!!
You've made me so happy over the past few weeks , and you means so much to me !

So i stayed over in Elises last night with a load of peoples . Was great fun .... even after walking for about an hour and a half in the pitch dark and rain to ardclough XP !!! Dannys leaving =[ , me sad !!! He's awesome !!!! Stoopid asian college thingy !!!!Grrrrrrr

Went to see a christmas carol yesterday too ..... omg soooooooooo freaky , and scary !!! Me and Lucy cried =[ !! Twas an awesome day .. Oh , i'm not smoking no more aswell ....... just thought i'd throw that in there =]

Strike on tuesday !!! Woot woot ! Allowed go clane XP yayness ......

Matt showed me this band Glamour Of The Kill ... they is awesome !!!





Well thats about it , i g2g do an essay for irish and one for English that was due for last week =S

Bye Byes


SparklesandAshes

......but you can sky rocket away from me , and never come back if you find another galaxy ......

so , something blogworthy actually happens in my life and i find myself reluctant to even think of it ..... never mind type it ...


This certain girl , who i know reads this , for reasons unknown just decided that i wasnt good enough to know her .
She cant know how much this hurts .... she was in Dublin , she told me , she told me that we'd hang out .... i waited all day for her to tell me what the story was , were when etc ....and she never did . I'm so hurt and lost and confused ... i dont know weather she forgot or "forgot" or if it was something someone told her ( a certain someone who let me down before and ever since then sickens me to see her every day) or if she finally realised what a complete waste of time knowing me is .

Whatever her reasons , why can't she just tell me ???
How can she just leave me without a clue whats going on ...???

i've been comfort eating and smoking like a chimney and washing my hair over and over to do something anything to avoid thinking , maybe it'd just me over reacting but .....oh i dunno ..... I need another cigarette ...


Tell me where do they go
These smoke rings I blow each night
What do they do these circles of blue and white
Puff puff puff puff your cares away
Puff puff puff night and day
Blow blow them through the air silky little rings
Those little smoke rings I love take me above .....
-K.D. Lang , Smoke rings


Fuck it anyways , it doesnt matter , life goes on ... But yeah , this weekend sucked !!


Getting obsessed with K.D Lang atm ..... she has the most amazing voice ever !


oh and this song is amazing !




really describes how i feel now ..... =]

SparklesandAshes xx

.........FUNGI SHOVEL !!!!!

Who would name a dolphin after a mushroom anyways....?

So's , havent blogged in a while , midterm and suchness ....
Midterm was LIKEZOMFGSUPERAWESOMENESSSPARKLEWOWSPLUSABIGRAWRCAUSEIMJUSTTHATKOOLWITHACAPITALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



or just plain very very good =] .

So went to Ffaf with Efa on a whim , was awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwesome !!!!! We gots right near the front and all and danced like lunatics =P







Then gots grounded by my mammy , but she brought me shopping and cinema to see UP and bought me twilight on Dvd so it wasnt all bad =S













Btw UP is amazzzzzzzzzzeing !! So sad =[ ..... But total animation awesomeness!!!














Went ste's party on Halloween , wasnt there for very long but twas amazing !!!! The stories going around speak for themselves !!




well , g2g ballet now , toodles!!



SparklesandAshes
xx

...... I'm not quite made of awesome , maybe very very good ....?

Snow White: Oh, they do look delicious.
Queen: Yes, but wait 'till you taste one, dearie. Like to try one? Go on. Go on, have a bite.
Queen: And since you've been so good to poor old Granny, I'll share a secret with you. This is no ordinary apple. It's a magic wishing apple.
Snow White: A wishing apple?
Queen: Yes. One bite, and all your dreams will come true.
Snow White: Really?
Queen: Yes, girlie. Now, make a wish, and take a bite.



Read this earlier in an old fairl tale book ! ^^











So yeah , bloggity blog blog !!

This weeks been pretty good . Monday was the usual Youth Café meeting thingy , except all the prospective Youth Leaders from Salesians were there ! That was kinda fun , oh and Scott gave his presentation on yhe design of the café with "rocks" XD !!!!!
Tuesday was AN HOUR AND A HALF of ballet !!!! It killed but felt really good about it afterwards . Woke up thismorning with a fecked up leg though ......
Today was reeeeeeeeeeeally boring , no Greenday for me ='[
But tomorrow i gots my geography trip and Zombie Prom with Cliffers and Simon later so should be fun .

Oh and Tru Bloods on tonight !!!!!! =]

Shoutouts to peoples ..... =] ! :


Firstly to my Efa !!
What would i do without you !!?? You're my rock , and you're always there for me to talk to if i need to , you're beautiful and sweet and un-selfish and you're one of the bestest friends anyone could ever hope to have !! =] xxx
p.s. you're mommys wellies are smagical !!


John !!
My best friend ! We've always been there for each other , through good times and bad , even if we're fighting i know you'll always listen to me if i'm upset , and i try do the same for you ( even though sometimes that doesnt work out ...... XP ) . Even with you're own problems you always try to help others through theirs and that almost makes up for you're AWFUL sence of style XP !! Jk , you know i dont mean it ....! I always feel i can tell you about everything and you've been a better friend to me then i deserve .


Scott XD
This guys amazing , he was there when i needed someone and wrote me a mini msn essay on why i dont fail at life XP . Oh , and he cant make virtual beanbags ...... Lol =D

Niamhy xx
I miss this girl so much , when she left my lift came crashing down around me but it makes it all the better when i do get to see her !! Hun , i know that i've treated you like shit sometimes over the yearscaused you stress and problems you dont deserve , and i know that you can never forgive me for some of the stupid shit i've put you through but i ant you to know that i'm truly sorry for all that i've done . I'll try in as far as i can to get on with people so that it cant cause you pain ..... But inanyways , cant wait until i see you in November
=p , gonna be great ! Remember the book ??? Ily darlin' , thanks for being one of my bestest friends ever !
xx

Dan
This guy is awesomeness embodied ! He's kinda weird but thats just him , he'll always try to help it theres something up and can always cheer you up with his quirky ways !
Dont think he'll ever make a fear an tí though XD!!!


and lastly .......

Mat <3


Words aren't enough ...........







SparklesandAshes
xx

......woah !

Hello there the angel from my nightmare The shadow in backround of the morgue The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me And we'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never end



Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head :)











So , yeah blogging again !!!

I had a pretty good week .... ish ! h Two tests in school on friday which i'm convinced i failed !! Grrrrrr i hate Hamlet quotes !!! The only good thing about Hamlet ( Luke G pointed this out !) is that it's pretty much the same story as the lion king only with people ......

Right so this is how it works out :P !!

Claudius = Scar
Ghost = Mufasa
Hamlet = Simba
Gertrude = Sarabi
Ophelia = Nala
Horatio = Rafiki
Laertes + Polonius = Hyenas
Players = Timone and Pumba












god i have no life ....... hehe !! XD


while I'm on the subject The Lion King is the best film EVER !!!! =O




Just thought you'd like to know ! =P




So , yeterday was fun . Drama was kinda shit , excepts for Simons reaction to the question "Can we walk ? " when we were doing improvs ..... he replies " Yes i've a few things to tell you to " in a really solemn voice ....
Everyone just burst out laughing !! It was just the way he said it , it was oe of those 'you had to be there' kinda things !

Matt came over after that and we watched Lost Boys , AWESOME MOVIE !!!! I think i'm starting to get bit obsessed with vampire films ...=P . He had to go home really early though , which was kinda bad ='[ ....

And then kept getting calls from drunken friends at the weir asking me to come out , did eventually when most of them had sobered up XD , so all in all twas fun !! =P


SparklesandAshes
xx

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Ok , so this blog is getting published two days late cause my computer sucks and decided to crash on me , so i only had it saved as a draft so yeah , sorry about that ... !! XP

=S........

“I'm still trying to express my truth, my place in the world, my belief,”
-Amanda Palmer






That post earlier was rather depressing !!!! I just needed to let it all out ...... and listen to some Amanda Palmer and Dresdon Dolls to calm myself down . XP

So yeah , heading out now , in a happier mood ..... hopefully it'll stay like that :]

So yeah , thats it for nows !

SparklesandAshes
xx