Happiness hit her , like a train on a track ......

So this weeks been quite interesting .....

Thins i've done this week :

Gone to see a Vampire Film !
Been locked in a classroom by a teacher !
Been rescued by another teacher....
Accused my principal of being Jealous that Luke has hair when he told him to cut it !
(he didn't deny it !!! )
Got an A in a maths test ( first time since second year =P )
Not washed my hair ( the waters gone in my house =[ )
Heard someone saying "the state of her" at me
Edited a whole loada pictures
Actually done my homework
Watched GLEE !!! =]


Okay , now i'm bored so i'm gonna do one of these quiz thingys =]

1) Are you in a relationship with somebody? yup =]

2) Do you hate more than 3 people? hummmmm , actually exactly 3 !

3) How many houses have you lived in? 2

4) Favorite candy bar? Dairy Milk

5) Favorite shoes? ZOMBIE STILETTOS !

6) Have you ever tripped someone? I don't remember.

7) Least favorite school subject? Maths ....

9) Do you own a Britney Spears CD? ......yeah =S......

10) Have you ever thrown up in public? Nope !

11) Name one thing that is always on your mind. Mat XP

12) Favorite genre of music? If i like how it sounds i'll listen to it ...

13) What is your zodiac sign? Taurus

14) What time were you born? eh ...?

15) Do you like beer? Depends ...

16) Ever made a prank phone call? Duh !

17) What is the most embarrassing CD you own? Marilyn Manson =P

18) Are you sarcastic? i dunno , am i ??

19) What are your favorite colors?Purple , electric blue , grey , white

20) How many watches do you own? eh ?

21) Summer or winter? Winter cause it gets dark early and i'm a night person , Summer cause thats when memories are made !

23) Favorite color to wear? Denim Blue !

24) Pepsi or Sprite? No.

25) What color is your cell phone? Black and pink

26) Where is your second home? i only gots the one deerie !

27) Have you ever slapped someone? Sure =]

28) Have you ever had a cavity? i think so ...

29) How many lamps are in your bedroom? 2

30) How many video games do you own? Me? Zero.

31) What was your first pet? woffies , she was older then me and had kittens the day i was born !

32) Ever had braces? (sigh) Yes. Off on the 21st !!

33) Do looks matter? Deffinitely , if they didnt i wouldnt chastise myself for being ugly ( no arguements !!)

34) Do you use chap stick? No, vaseline !

35) Name 3 teachers from High School. Mr O'Brian , Ms Potts , Ms Colleary * shudder*

36) American Eagle or Abercombie? Abercrombie =P

37) Are you too forgiving? No.

38) How many children do you want?EWWWWWWWWIE !!

39) Do you own something from Hot Topic? they're not in ireland =[

40) Favorite breakfast meal? Preferably none

41) Do you own a gun? They'res dozens around my house !! Cap guns , star wars guns , rifles , nerf guns ..... all my little brothers !

42) Ever thought you were in love? yeah , BIG mistake !

43) When was the last time you cried? not sure

44) What did you do 3 nights ago? homework ... i'm so sad !

45) Olive Garden? no , i do not have an olive garden , but seeing as you asked ....

46) Have you ever called your teacher mommy? came close to it !

47) Have you ever been in a castle? Yes. I want one.

48) Nicknames? Nonie , Skippy , Sionnánandonandonandonandon......

49) Do you know anyone named Bertha? eh , no !

50) Ever been to Kentucky? Fried Chicken. Yes, I have.

51) Do you own something from Banana Republic? Nope

52) Are you thinking about somebody right now? yup , NOT TELLING WHO !! x]

53) Have you ever called someone Boo? No.

55) Do you own a diamond ring? nope

56) Are you happy with your life right now? nope , guess i never will be

57) Do you dye your hair? no =[

58) Does anyone like you?I'm always surprised when they do ...

59) What year were you born? 1993

60) What were you doing in May of 1994? Celebrating my first birthday !!

61) Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD? No.

62) McDonalds or Wendys? No.

63) Do you like yourself? eh , no .

64) Are you closer to your mother or father? My dad deffo !

65) Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex? Hair and eh ..... a pulse ?

66) Are you afraid of the dark? Nope !!

67) Have you ever eaten paste? em .....

68) Do you own a webcam? no.

69) Have you ever stripped? No , i shower with my clothes on -_-

70) Ever broke a bone?nope

72) Do you chat on AIM often? on wa' ?

73) Pringles or Lays? Pringles !

74) Have you ever broken someone's heart? nah

75) Rugrats or Doug? huh ?

76) Full House or The Brady Bunch? BRADY BUNCH !!! Cant stand the oslens

77) Did you like your high school guidance counselor? Eh , nope , she doesnt do much guiding ....

78) Has anyone ever called you fat? the mirror ....?

79) Do you have a birth mark? Nope

80) Do you own a car? nah

81) Can you cook? Yes

82) 3 things that annoy you: 1. People who are pretty , but say that they're ugly just to make you feel bad about yourself . 2. Pointless little school rules . 3. My hair

83) Do you text message often? all the time

84) Money or love? neither

85) Do you have any scars? yeah

86) What do you want more than anything right now? For the water to be back ...

87) Do you enjoy scary movies? depends on the movie.

88) Relationships or one night stands? hummmmm , dunno !

89) Big Red or Juicy Fruit? No.

90) Do you enjoy greasy food? occasionally

91) Have you seen all the Rocky movies? eh , no!!

92) Do you own a box of crayons? I own a PLANET of crayons.

94) Who was the last person that said they loved you? My little brother !

95) Who was the last person that made you mad? My mommy

96) Who was the last person that made you cry? My mommy XD

97) Who was the last person that made you laugh? My little brother

98) Who was the last person that you fell for?Mat ..... XP

99) Who was the last person that instant messaged you?Aislinn

100) Who was the last person that called you? John

So that bored me even more , probably bored you to death too . Well night !

SparklesandAshes xx

A short history of almost something ........

I've been thinking , about life and such , and the whole point of it . If you think about it , there doesnt seem to be much to it . What i mean is that we start out life tiny , helpless and utterly insignificant and eighty years later end it the same way. Between those two times is the vast emptiness that will become your life . But what are you to do with it ?? With all that empty space and time ??

Do you live how everyone expects you to live. Gain an average salary , four bed semi detached , SUV , a dog , a cat , a husband in the civil service and 2.5 children ?

Do you live to treasure every moment . Gain memories instead of posessions , surround yourself with friends , lust new experience , travel , find happiness , fall in love ?

Do you live to lay waste to the world . Gain power , lose it , make the world your plaything , do everything for you and you only , do drugs , get the most you can out of the time you have , one-night-stand , forget you care ?

But , does it even matter in the end ? Why should we bother trying to choose when we know that we will all end up alone and vunerable . Cold , insignificant and afraid .

This all sounds really pesimistic but actually what i'm trying to say is that maybe the point of life is to live it how you choose , that whatever you choose will be the right chioce because it ultimately doesnt matter :)

This song i think kinda says it all really , this has to be one of my all time favourite songs ever and it's kinda what i think i'd say if i was asked when i'll decide what to do with my life =S

Another year , Amanda Palmer


I tried to fall in it again
My friends took bets and disappeared
They mime their sighing violins
I think I'll wait another year

I want my chest pressed to your chest
My nervous systems interfere
Ten or eleven months at best
I think I'll wait another year

This weather turns my tricks to rust
I am a lousy engineer
The winter makes things hard enough
I think I'll wait another year

Plus I'm only 26 years old
My grandma died in '83
That's lots of time if I don't smoke
I think I'll wait another year

I'm not as callous as you think
I barely breathe when you are near
It's not as bad when I don't drink
I think I'll wait another year

I have my new Bill Hicks CD
I have my friends and my career
I'm getting smaller by degrees
You said you'd help me disappear
But that could take forever
I think I'll wait another year

It'll be the best year ever
I think I'll wait another year
Can't we just wait together
You bring the smokes
I'll bring the beer
I think I'll wait another year


But anyways , Christmas and New Years were good , life is good , i love Mat , i've started studying and getting serious about my drama and ballet exams , my hairs beginning to learn some manners , i think i'm a happier person :)


SparklesandAshes xx

I've sat at home all day listening to Papa Roach and Tiesto instead of going into town .................. does that make me weird ??




Oh well ! =]

SparklesandAshes xx

“Too many people grow up. That's the real trouble with the world - Walt Disney ...........

I counted today . It's eighteen months until my childhood is over . It sounds like a long time now but it's gonna go by so fast , i know it . I'm so so scared for that . I'm so scared of losing all the friends i have and not coming out anymore and changing into a new sort of person . Thing is , i know that this will happen , i've seen it with most other people . I just dont wanna grow up yet , and have all my memories of people and places important to me now become just memories of a past i've left behind me ......
So i've decided , i'm gona stop worrying about life and just live it , theres so little time that it's just too precious to miss and waste . You're a teenager for roughly eight years of your life . You'll be working in the same boring job day in day out for fourty years . Yet for those fourty years the people , places , joys and sorrows of those eight are what stay with you and change you into the person you will become . Thats why i've decided to stop caring what people think about how i live during the next year and a half and start living !!! =]

SparklesandAshes xx

....... rant rant rant rant grrrrrrrrrr!

I hate fights . They cause bother and ructions and you lose friends and eventually you just end up fighting with yourself . I've only ever been in one major fight and , though i admit life has been far better since , it's caused a butterfly effect that has spread throughout my whole life and now effects almost everything i do or feel or am . But , what i find worse then fights is drifting . When you think of someone as a close friend one day and then days , weeks , months go by . You're both busy all of the time , first you cancell an outing , then they do , then you stop organising them altogether ... You talk less and less , though not intentionally , you just find less and less to talk about , but you would still count them as one of your good friends . Then suddenly , on a not-so-very-special day , months and months hence , you see them . Run into them by pure chance . They're taller now , dress different . The'r hair has grown , and they've a different manner , older somehow . You greet them , warmly , you're glad to see them finally . They look up , startled , their expression asks who this person is . You're shocked , for an instant they didnt recognise you . They smile back , and greet you . A sigh of relief passes your lips , you must have changed too . But then they raise their eyes . You stare back , and it's like staring at a stranger . You realise how the past months have changed them to that stranger . That without realising it you have grown apart . The once good friends now know nothing of each others lives , they aren't a part of them anymore . You exchange brief plesentries , they are off somewhere with their new friends , you have homework to do . You turn away , trying not to crumble beneath your make up . Trying to stop the grief well up . For lost friendships that should never have fallen away . This happens far far too much .
A&C , i miss you guys so much ....

SparklesandAshes
xx

............ Champagne for my real friends and real pain for my sham friends. - Tom Waits

Yes it wasn't origionally Fall Out Boy who said that =P ....


But yeah today was pretty good .... BRACES OFF IN 6 WEEKS!!! WOOOT!!!! Actually cant wait !! Visited granny today , pretty un-eventful ! Got €20 though =] . Also got the day off school cause of orthodontist . All in all pretty good ....

Sick of false friends , i've decided that i dont care anymore !!!!

Parents being bitches .... report came yesterday . They saw the shit results and flipped . Thing is i've been working harder then ever but no matter what i do it's never enough . I've decided that i'll never have kids cause i'm so afraid of ending up just like my mother , and i know i will !! I wish that my mum was the type of person i could confide in , and tell everything to . I'm so jealous of people who have that sorta relationship with their parents . Almost everyone i know has had some sorta trouble with parents . Makes you wonder why we bother sometimes . They push their troubles onto you , ask you to fix them and then tell you it's none of your business , grrrrrr ! But of course everything you do is their business , and they try convincing you that their nosiness is out of concern for your wellbeing , whereas actually it's simply nosiness. Philip Larkin says it better then i ever would ...

They fuck you up, your mum and dad
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

So yeah ...Friends who are miserable apper to be staying miserable , oh well , if they dont wanna be helped what can ya do !? =] Neeeeeeeeeeeed to see new moon soon =[ ... AOIFE!!!! hehe:)

Loving Placebo's latest album ... they're amazing as ever and Brian Molokos voice never gets old !!





Best song off the album in my opinion =P

SparklesandAshes
xx




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Old post that i forgot to publish =P
Kinda late but oh well , was supposed to be publisted on 12/12/09

Enjoy !! xx

uselessness sucks ........

Just another day. Seems like everybody's, got a problem.
And no one knows how but, we all wanna solve 'em.
And you could give a dime, give a hand, give a shit.
Or you could look away and never deal with it......
-Zebrahead , Whats going on ?


Did you ever see someone in pain . Someone you would call your friend ( though you're not sure if they'd say the same of you ). And you can't help them ? Becuse they dont want help , and they'd hate if someone tried to give it to them , especially someone like you . How much does it hurt to watch them hurt , and know that you can do nothing about it ? It's horrible to watch them drown , and knowing that if you tried to save them they'd hate you , reject your help , and jump back in again . How do you stop that ? Stop them from hurting themselves before it's too late ..... I know that sounds dramatic but it's fucking frustrating !!!

But in other news , this weeks been reeeeeeeeally boring , got notes in journal in school , which is endangering the potential shopping trip tomorrow =S ....

Have to design a poster for the Youth Café talent competition .... Should be interesting ...

As of X-mas day CatMouseDogFish Films are go >.< ..... i.e. i get my camera and start making random films in prep for college =] hehe

Me and Luke found a picture painted over 100 years ago that is the SPITTING IMAGE of Robert Pattinson in a dress in our Art History books !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =O

Debs tickets were announced , still debating weather to go or not =S ....

Getting 30 Seconds to mars tickets soon hopefully ..... !!

It's raining ... grrrrrrrrrrr >.<

And thats about it , reeeeeeally short post but there ya' go !

SparklesandAshes xx