......sad clowns :[

I <3 this !! =]


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Today i is not in the best of moods ..... Everybody goes aroun like i dont exist . Either nobody gives a shit or they just keep forgetting me but either wayit's like i'm fucking invisible . Every time theres a party , or cinema trip or sleepover or anything im alway the one someone"forgot " to invite and i'm fucking sick of it . Then i feel like i have to lie to everyone else about it so i dont look like a complete loser !! I'm sick of people taking me for granted aswell . I was apparently one of someones "best friends" and now she doesnt even ask me to come out aymore . If it's that much effort being friends with me dont fucking bother , cause it'd be better for us all if you just told me to my face if you dont wanna talk to me. Truth is , i care too much about what people think of me and i get paranoid over it , so will everyone just quit fucking with my head !! Why am i always the one to listen to othr peoples problems when i can never talk openly about my own ??


I'm just so confused , everyone seems to want to push me away but i love them all !!!

I know i'm ugly
I know i'm annoying
I know that i've no right to the friends i have


But that doesnt mean that everyone cant pretend otherwise ....




"Sad clown , with his circus closed down . Lost on my merry-go-round"
-Charles Mingus









SparklesandAshes ,
xx