...... I'm not quite made of awesome , maybe very very good ....?

Snow White: Oh, they do look delicious.
Queen: Yes, but wait 'till you taste one, dearie. Like to try one? Go on. Go on, have a bite.
Queen: And since you've been so good to poor old Granny, I'll share a secret with you. This is no ordinary apple. It's a magic wishing apple.
Snow White: A wishing apple?
Queen: Yes. One bite, and all your dreams will come true.
Snow White: Really?
Queen: Yes, girlie. Now, make a wish, and take a bite.



Read this earlier in an old fairl tale book ! ^^











So yeah , bloggity blog blog !!

This weeks been pretty good . Monday was the usual Youth Café meeting thingy , except all the prospective Youth Leaders from Salesians were there ! That was kinda fun , oh and Scott gave his presentation on yhe design of the café with "rocks" XD !!!!!
Tuesday was AN HOUR AND A HALF of ballet !!!! It killed but felt really good about it afterwards . Woke up thismorning with a fecked up leg though ......
Today was reeeeeeeeeeeally boring , no Greenday for me ='[
But tomorrow i gots my geography trip and Zombie Prom with Cliffers and Simon later so should be fun .

Oh and Tru Bloods on tonight !!!!!! =]

Shoutouts to peoples ..... =] ! :


Firstly to my Efa !!
What would i do without you !!?? You're my rock , and you're always there for me to talk to if i need to , you're beautiful and sweet and un-selfish and you're one of the bestest friends anyone could ever hope to have !! =] xxx
p.s. you're mommys wellies are smagical !!


John !!
My best friend ! We've always been there for each other , through good times and bad , even if we're fighting i know you'll always listen to me if i'm upset , and i try do the same for you ( even though sometimes that doesnt work out ...... XP ) . Even with you're own problems you always try to help others through theirs and that almost makes up for you're AWFUL sence of style XP !! Jk , you know i dont mean it ....! I always feel i can tell you about everything and you've been a better friend to me then i deserve .


Scott XD
This guys amazing , he was there when i needed someone and wrote me a mini msn essay on why i dont fail at life XP . Oh , and he cant make virtual beanbags ...... Lol =D

Niamhy xx
I miss this girl so much , when she left my lift came crashing down around me but it makes it all the better when i do get to see her !! Hun , i know that i've treated you like shit sometimes over the yearscaused you stress and problems you dont deserve , and i know that you can never forgive me for some of the stupid shit i've put you through but i ant you to know that i'm truly sorry for all that i've done . I'll try in as far as i can to get on with people so that it cant cause you pain ..... But inanyways , cant wait until i see you in November
=p , gonna be great ! Remember the book ??? Ily darlin' , thanks for being one of my bestest friends ever !
xx

Dan
This guy is awesomeness embodied ! He's kinda weird but thats just him , he'll always try to help it theres something up and can always cheer you up with his quirky ways !
Dont think he'll ever make a fear an tí though XD!!!


and lastly .......

Mat <3


Words aren't enough ...........







SparklesandAshes
xx

......woah !

Hello there the angel from my nightmare The shadow in backround of the morgue The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me And we'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never end



Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head :)











So , yeah blogging again !!!

I had a pretty good week .... ish ! h Two tests in school on friday which i'm convinced i failed !! Grrrrrr i hate Hamlet quotes !!! The only good thing about Hamlet ( Luke G pointed this out !) is that it's pretty much the same story as the lion king only with people ......

Right so this is how it works out :P !!

Claudius = Scar
Ghost = Mufasa
Hamlet = Simba
Gertrude = Sarabi
Ophelia = Nala
Horatio = Rafiki
Laertes + Polonius = Hyenas
Players = Timone and Pumba












god i have no life ....... hehe !! XD


while I'm on the subject The Lion King is the best film EVER !!!! =O




Just thought you'd like to know ! =P




So , yeterday was fun . Drama was kinda shit , excepts for Simons reaction to the question "Can we walk ? " when we were doing improvs ..... he replies " Yes i've a few things to tell you to " in a really solemn voice ....
Everyone just burst out laughing !! It was just the way he said it , it was oe of those 'you had to be there' kinda things !

Matt came over after that and we watched Lost Boys , AWESOME MOVIE !!!! I think i'm starting to get bit obsessed with vampire films ...=P . He had to go home really early though , which was kinda bad ='[ ....

And then kept getting calls from drunken friends at the weir asking me to come out , did eventually when most of them had sobered up XD , so all in all twas fun !! =P


SparklesandAshes
xx

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Ok , so this blog is getting published two days late cause my computer sucks and decided to crash on me , so i only had it saved as a draft so yeah , sorry about that ... !! XP

=S........

“I'm still trying to express my truth, my place in the world, my belief,”
-Amanda Palmer






That post earlier was rather depressing !!!! I just needed to let it all out ...... and listen to some Amanda Palmer and Dresdon Dolls to calm myself down . XP

So yeah , heading out now , in a happier mood ..... hopefully it'll stay like that :]

So yeah , thats it for nows !

SparklesandAshes
xx

......sad clowns :[

I <3 this !! =]


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Today i is not in the best of moods ..... Everybody goes aroun like i dont exist . Either nobody gives a shit or they just keep forgetting me but either wayit's like i'm fucking invisible . Every time theres a party , or cinema trip or sleepover or anything im alway the one someone"forgot " to invite and i'm fucking sick of it . Then i feel like i have to lie to everyone else about it so i dont look like a complete loser !! I'm sick of people taking me for granted aswell . I was apparently one of someones "best friends" and now she doesnt even ask me to come out aymore . If it's that much effort being friends with me dont fucking bother , cause it'd be better for us all if you just told me to my face if you dont wanna talk to me. Truth is , i care too much about what people think of me and i get paranoid over it , so will everyone just quit fucking with my head !! Why am i always the one to listen to othr peoples problems when i can never talk openly about my own ??


I'm just so confused , everyone seems to want to push me away but i love them all !!!

I know i'm ugly
I know i'm annoying
I know that i've no right to the friends i have


But that doesnt mean that everyone cant pretend otherwise ....




"Sad clown , with his circus closed down . Lost on my merry-go-round"
-Charles Mingus









SparklesandAshes ,
xx

Carlsberg dont do bad days , but if they did .....

Just had the worst day eveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!


Well , maybe not the absolute worst day but it's definitely in the top five or so .....



I woke up this morning to the pitter patter of rain coming through my open window and landing all over my french homework . Then , after the usual screaming match with my mam i realised that the container with my foundation is broken ..... foundation ALL OVER my make-up bag and none to put on my face =[ . Then after storming out the door i remember that my dads in Berlin and i'll have to get the bus to school . Joy . Getting the bus is a pain cause some genius in Dublin Bus thought that it'd be the best idea in the world not to link up Celbridge and Leixlip by any bus route whatsoever .... So i go around the corner to the 67X bus stop thinking "What the hell , i might as well get this bus as any other , it's my mams bus fare anyways ! " . So i get on the bus and pay my €1.70 ( it's supposed to be 65c for a school child but apparently an extra little letter on the front almost doubles the price ! ) thinking to myself that i'll get off in Lucan and get the 66 to school. This was at about 8 in the morning and school starts at 20 to 9 so i thought i'd loadsa time . Then , as i watched the 67X sail past the turn to Lucan i remembered that that extra little letter on the front not only means that it's ridiculously over-priced , but that it DOESNT GO THROUGH LUCAN !!! I started to panic , not knowing what to do but i decide , hey it's not the end of the world , i can get off at Liffey Valley andstill make it in time for school . So as i went over the bridge there, the 66b , which leaves me right outside the school , sailed by and i had to wait another 20 mins for a 66 . I ended up half an hour late to school and my principle grrrrrrred at me !!! And all this happened in the pissing rain which made my hair curly =[ .





So basically a grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr day !!!




Peace out
xx

It's a new dawn , it's a new day , it's a new life ......

Life is good :]

















As of yesterday i is no longer single ....... Not sure how to feel about that !





Guess i feel happy , i suppose :]








So lifes finally stopped being boring , it's weird , even if loadsa terrible things were happening i think i would still be sorta happy because i wouldnt be bored . Thats really weird ...... But luckily it's not boring because all good things are happening :] . My mams extended my curfew , my hair is learning to behave it's self and Matt<3 !

But anyways .... short blog cause i'm at Graces staying over .... =P

Peace out

xx

.......rants and epiphanys

"Nobody can be uncheered with a balloon"
-Winnie the Pooh









Do you ever find that the most random things make you incredibly happy for no apparent reason ???

Today i came home from Dans house ( i teach him Irish every friday ....... it's hopeless! ) and i saw this random balloon floating over my house ..... for some reason this put me in an increeeeeeeeeeeeedibly happy mood !!!!! :]

That lasted all of five minutes until i realised that i had a MOUNTAIN of homework ( which i am "doing" right now . Ironically my english is learning on procrastination in Hamlet XP ! ) . Quickest way to ruin your weekend for ya !! :[



I dunno weather to go youthclub today or not ..... i feel like i'm kinda old for it and its pretty boring , but what else is there to do . If i dont go i'll be just hanging around some shop or smeones house or something like that . Having said that i dont wanna grow up and i wish i was a year or two younger , just so that i'd have more time left as a kid ...... Weird right ?:]
Hum...... Peter Pan much ..... i wish i could go to Never Never Land and never grow up and be my age forever .......... Everyone else wants to be 18 and grow up and get the freedoms that come with that but i dont mind how hings are now ..... i just never want the type of life i'm living to end. I know that when w go to college everything changes , suddenly were grown-ups and theres a whole new world to contend with . I have trouble enouh with this one ....







But anyway , rant for the day over ..... :] . I wish my friends would stop fighting !! This annoys me , especially when it's over petty stupid things like boyfriends or bitchiness or even when theres no apparent reason at all :[. I know this sounds real preachy and stuf but they keep taking everything for granted one day or other they'll fall and find theres noone left to catch them !!





Peace out :]

xx

Life is boring .........

Life is INCREDIBLY boring ..........












........i mean really , so little shouldnt be allowed to happen in a week !

all the drama that happens in my group of friends is always around other peoples lives and shit ..... BLAGH!!!


I want SOMETHING to happen , ANYTHING just to alleviate the boredom =[









Plus I seem to be doing everything wrong lately .... saying the wrong things , acting the wrong way and of course being a general dope as per usual !

been listening to Tom Waits alot lately ..... kinda captures the boredness and stuff =/.....









anyway ...
Peace out for nows !
xx