I've been thinking , about life and such , and the whole point of it . If you think about it , there doesnt seem to be much to it . What i mean is that we start out life tiny , helpless and utterly insignificant and eighty years later end it the same way. Between those two times is the vast emptiness that will become your life . But what are you to do with it ?? With all that empty space and time ??
Do you live how everyone expects you to live. Gain an average salary , four bed semi detached , SUV , a dog , a cat , a husband in the civil service and 2.5 children ?
Do you live to treasure every moment . Gain memories instead of posessions , surround yourself with friends , lust new experience , travel , find happiness , fall in love ?
Do you live to lay waste to the world . Gain power , lose it , make the world your plaything , do everything for you and you only , do drugs , get the most you can out of the time you have , one-night-stand , forget you care ?
But , does it even matter in the end ? Why should we bother trying to choose when we know that we will all end up alone and vunerable . Cold , insignificant and afraid .
This all sounds really pesimistic but actually what i'm trying to say is that maybe the point of life is to live it how you choose , that whatever you choose will be the right chioce because it ultimately doesnt matter :)
This song i think kinda says it all really , this has to be one of my all time favourite songs ever and it's kinda what i think i'd say if i was asked when i'll decide what to do with my life =S
Another year , Amanda Palmer
I tried to fall in it again
My friends took bets and disappeared
They mime their sighing violins
I think I'll wait another year
I want my chest pressed to your chest
My nervous systems interfere
Ten or eleven months at best
I think I'll wait another year
This weather turns my tricks to rust
I am a lousy engineer
The winter makes things hard enough
I think I'll wait another year
Plus I'm only 26 years old
My grandma died in '83
That's lots of time if I don't smoke
I think I'll wait another year
I'm not as callous as you think
I barely breathe when you are near
It's not as bad when I don't drink
I think I'll wait another year
I have my new Bill Hicks CD
I have my friends and my career
I'm getting smaller by degrees
You said you'd help me disappear
But that could take forever
I think I'll wait another year
It'll be the best year ever
I think I'll wait another year
Can't we just wait together
You bring the smokes
I'll bring the beer
I think I'll wait another year
But anyways , Christmas and New Years were good , life is good , i love Mat , i've started studying and getting serious about my drama and ballet exams , my hairs beginning to learn some manners , i think i'm a happier person :)
SparklesandAshes xx
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well know how you live your life does matter because at the end of it your gonna feel a lot better if your life meant something,or you lived a good,happy,meaningful and regretless life rather than a regret filled,meaningless,careless life on your deathbed.like say a person may live a life where he doesnt care and he doesnt believe what he does matters.he lives a life of partying,no real loveing relationship and no good job,no family and nothing he truly wants he gets.in the end when hes small and old he feels sad.then someone who does what he wants,cares about what they do and if the decisions they make make them happy and they die happy with no regrets.its up to opinion and i see what you mean but i dunno i think life does matter in a way,it doesnt matter in a religious way or test kind of way it matters for us,we can make ourselves happy when we die or we can make ourselves sad before we die.from shawshank redemption itself ''get busy living or get busy dieing''.it matters to the person if they want to be happy then it matters
ReplyDeleteim not saying your wrong youre actually right but it does matter to the person i think,we can make our lives matter,good post lol
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